Envying Ex’s girlfriend

Truly, until now

I just realised,

the emotion behind anger, is envy.

I envy her.

She had someone by her side.

A place to shield 

from the world.

And me？ I had nothing  

when everything happened.

Neither a safe place 

nor a protector.

Trying to move forward with pain.

嫉妒的底下，看見了某部份，渴望被保護及支持的自己。從來都沒有人為我出頭。從來都沒有。故，當朋友一句：「我練泰拳，他長什麼樣子，幫你揍他。」莫名舒了丁點。原來有人為自己出頭的感受是如此。